Saturday, May 13, 2006
today i was sposed to go to janeen's church but i decided to go next week instead.yeah.and i just heard a basketball bouncing ds so i guess the court will be occupied.everyone's like busy i guess. then the stupid bluetooth oso cannot work which is so frustrating.yeah and i was just thinking about the past and all the fun i used to have?yeah.and how angry i felt about my parent which i still do btw.yeah
i remember there was once where i was just drawing hearts on a piece of paper--it was random and then my mom saw it and she said,'' why you in love ah??'' and i was like NOO which was..not true but it was not the reason i was drawing the hearts.yeah.
then i remember the the year 2004 where..i always looked forward to band cuz i could always see and even sit next to ahem. and it made me feel really happy and yeah.then during band camp,which was also a farewell party for the p6's.i sat there,next to him.then when they called his name to go up to receive his cert,i tried not to cry.and i just clapped for him.and when i reached home.i just locked myself in the room and cried.then to make things worse,my mom asked me to open the door and asked me what was wrong.ugh.yeah.then i just told her i was sad that i didnt get chosen as band leader.lols.
and i remember that when i came early to school, me and nurul would meet nikki outside the library.just to talk. and umm now it has become my fav spot.yeah.
and then every friday,i would excuse myself from math olympiad class just to see that guy.come outta the canteen and walk to his class.hahas i was so crazy then.lols.
and then we would always walk in a big group past the p6 classes just to see him.yeah.and i remember how nervous i always was.that was really pathetic.
and omg now i find it really embarrassing doing all those things lah.lols and now.i only get to see him like.once a year-teachers day.
but then there was also a certain someone would be there for me when i was sad.and yeah i always smsed him.lols but.now he. went to a diff school and..with another gal i guess.and..yeah i guess he sorta gone.and i took him for granted.yah.
okay that was kinda really crappy.hahas
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